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What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?
In hindsight, most of the things I've been though don't seem so bad anymore. I know they were definitely hard when I was in the middle of it, but I am grateful now for the experiences.
The hardest thing that I can remember enduring was my first break up, which happened 7 months ago. It was hard because it was, surprisingly, the biggest blow to my testimony that I've ever had. I learned a lot about faith, trust, hope, and personal revelation as I sorted through my shattered feelings during the next few months.
It was hard emotionally, spiritually, physically, and mentally. I lost my appetite for several months and often had to force myself to eat something. All I wanted to do was sleep all the time, but I was Relief Society president and in the middle of a demanding semester. To top it all off, my ex was in my ward, was the Elder's Quorum President, and was in one of my classes. There was no escaping the memory of our relationship and no opportunity for closure.
The worst part was not being able to see the end of it. I knew from the start that I would get though it fine, but that only made it harder to have to wait through it.
Now, I think the worst of it is over. It's easy to look back and say that I'm grateful for it, but it was definitely the hardest thing I've ever experienced.
That being said, it was also one of the most spiritual times of my life, as I learned the truth of the scripture: "Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and he shall sustain thee." (Psalm 55:22) Thanks in large part to the prayers of my family and friends, I felt the sustaining influence of the Spirit more than I ever had in my life. The first few weeks, I knew it wasn't my strength that got me out of bed and carried me through each day-- it was Someone greater.
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